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ESCAPE A CURSE
03:51
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Still born into this world with a winning shot
a full of fortune of life bestowed onto me
though each day engaged in fist-a-cuffs
swinging hard to defend my identity
I can't escape a curse thats built with your blood and runs through my veins
When everything I do lives forever behind your name
every breath of frustration every taste of success
can't attain for the judgements the failures insist
I didn't choose this path I didn't make this life
And I don't owe an explanation for my right to exist
I can grow but I can't change
What I can't possibly escape
And I'll reject your shame
this is how I'm made
And I know this race
and I know my place
But I won't be shamed
by what I can't run away form
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2. |
ONCE NEVER KEPT
03:03
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I may one to forgive and forget
but when the wounds form they often lament they burn
Burn into scars that will never reform
Born into habits that are still unlearned
Learned that a second chance does not mean a new beginning
It was a fake a hoax a promise once never kept
I never felt your embrace as you wept
You don't love me anymore
and I fucking knew it
I tasted your tears and gave myself back
and then you fucking threw it
A murder we wrote that tore us apart
What died inside caused you to question your logic
you never worked on your heart you never worked through your shame
Couldn't let me go so I broke through your chains
I was betrayed deceived
led to believe a fact
that this was how you would end the final act
I won't be bruised and broken
by these words once spoked
I won't be bruised and broken
by the lies you've chosen
this pain and deceit I give it all back
in exchange for a promise once never kept
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3. |
TURNING IT AROUND
00:41
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4. |
REDESIGNED
04:43
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I hold this head on a stick displayed for you all to see
It belongs to the corpse of who I used to be
A cynic and jaded
distressed and unmotivated
throwing blame all around
when I was the one who I hated
Replacing pieces that have fallen away from me
wiping the past and rewriting my history
painting a picture of an image I had hoped to see
Shedding this skin
rebuilding this body
my condition of degradation
that I'll no longer foster of copy
I've been thrown to the dark and cast aside
living with reasons to leave it behind
a familiar pain destroyed my pride
while providing the strength to live through these days
I stand before you with a fire inside
Shaming the tortured boy I left behind
I tower over I come out on top
You struggle and squirm cause you can't give me up
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5. |
SWITCH
04:13
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I wanna feel you drip
I wanna taste you inside
I wanna see every imperfection, wrinkle and line
Cause I've tasted blood and now I'm drunk and blind
and this pungent scent of leather leaves me hungry and dry
I wanna give you control feel your grip on my life
Loose the function of my limbs and my ability to fight
I'm wearing battle scars as a mark of your wrath
my lips are swollen and blue
My back is raised from your scratch
I can't settle for normality
a sex thats stale and contrived is not a part of me
Is it a part of you?
I'll always ask before I touch
consent is part of this game
Checking in on your boundaries
as we tighten these restraints
are you a sub, switch or top?
can I shoot myself all over you and lick it all off
Not what I wanna be
This chained freak in the cage
Has since been let out
Strapped with whips and chains
and a ball in my mouth
My love notes riddled with safe words
humiliation and power plays build this soul
trust and respect rewards control
and I only want whats beautiful and gross
Thats what's a part of me
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6. |
SINK
04:35
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Loosing slipping falling behind
bones are crushed by the weight of the grind
in a rush always running late
they're aren't enough hours in the fucking day
choking grasping turning blue
I've bitten off more than I can possibly chew
This is the sacrifice you make
living large and throwing everything away
your loosing every time you blink
the dream is drowning as the island starts to sink
One step forward four steps back
the footsteps left all fade to black
grip the handle burn the blade red
collecting spleens just to get ahead
a utopia, a bohemians dream
just a fight to the death for the ruling team
fall in or be pushed out
jump in line or eat the fucking ground
No time to blink or hold your breath
the city life equals sudden death
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7. |
M
05:33
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My bodies aching
my eyes are bloodshot and dry
my mind is racing with the echoes of each goodbye
and the predicaments which have left me this way
it sliced my veins it hung me to bleed and dry
skinned and displayed as an outcome of this sweet surprise
remove my tear ducts now because theres nothing left to cry
Its hard to feel its getting better
As more hope fades away
its hard to feel I have the answer
my optimism dies each day
with lost conviction I tossed my own life aside
personal demotion from partner to the service side
where the trust once lay resentment resides
pushed away because of this darkened past
and a future seemingly bleak
but don't forget who was there
when your crimson curse stained the hospital sheets
and I gave myself away
for a sanctity never made
that's now buried in your grave
and I think that I hath fallen
But i can't see where I fell
feels like my permanent condition
as my bruised heart starts to swell
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8. |
OCS
03:58
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You aren't even listening
your just waiting for the perfect chance
to interrupt my speech
you have no fucking point of reference
your interjections are continues and fleeting
how can one assume you even care?
when you were never forced to share?
I'm drawing lines in what you reap
this narcissistic eloquence in every word you speak
your empathy and consciousness
hides behind your contraband of excessiveness
you'll wilt and suffer pace and mutter
won't endure the torture when your not the center
pass the blame when its at the front door
seek control in what you can't account for
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HOGWASCHE Brooklyn, New York
METALLIC BODY MUSIC FROM BROOKLYN, NEW YORK.
SIVART: VOCALS/SAMPLES
NIX: GUITAR/BASS
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